I don’t believe it’s fair to blame any one person for a suicide. By doing that, the family of the person who has passed away face even more pain. Suicide is a choice, a personal choice. Having gone down that road myself three times & losing two people to suicide, I know what it is like to be in that utterly black space. I know you don’t think rationally, you do believe that everyone will be better off without your dark dead moods, your constant lows, your refusal to interact in family life. On the other hand there are the people whose moods are always, whay hay, life is a laugh, let’s keep everyone happy, while inside your mind is saying, please don’t leave me alone, don’t go shopping, don’t go to visit your Mum, friend, etc. Please don’t stay away tonight on business, I don’t know if I will be able to stop myself swallowing all my tablets, how long will it take, how many do I need to take to make sure I get rid of this pain once & for all.

None of those thoughts are rational. Not one of them! When we get a bit of healing, we can look back at it and see that, but at the time, they consume every fibre of your being 24/7 I kid you not.